River Phoenix

The HSC experience

And it's killing me

That feeling

This may sound totally corn, but I don't really give two hoots. I have just spent the evening with some lovely girls, who are my friends. I drove home with a feeling of excitement, I'm not sure for what, but just excitement, an I'm ok with that. I also realised this evening this a few things that I would like to involve in my future life: here they are, I'm gunna list them, coz I love my lists & I'm excited!

1. To be involved with someone, you must make an effort
2. You can make connections with peoples in the cinema without talking/interacting with them whatsoever
3. To fulfill your desires, you must put yourself out there
4. Take risks

The excitement is quietly edging away from my stomach and head, and I'm ok with that, because (fingers crossed) I will feel the same bout of hope, happiness, contentment, excitement in my life again, and I hope you do to :-) .

Can you see?

Exams

What did I think when I was agreeing to year 12? That it was going to be all laugh and giggles. No folks, that it not the case... obviously. Don't get me wrong, I actually enjoy school and doing well, but geez, wouldn't it be easy just to casually pick up a pen and write a Band 6 response? Unfortunately my reality is quite different. Anyway, my lack of blogging has been due to busy schedule and lack of inspiration. But there was a minor incident in my week this week, that didn't exactly affect me that much, but I think it affected other people. You'd think at 17-18 years old, we'd be begginning to finish up with the bitchy school girl, however that is not the case. I'm not a bitchy person, but to be quite honest I love gossip. I don't pass it on, I just like listening to it. Anyway long story short, one of my friends I think has been going through a bit of a rough patch. Boys, self discovery, I'm not sure whats plaguing her mind, but she used to sit in the group I sit with, then moved to a more like minded group. Anyway, she started calling us nerds or something, and somehow it got back to our group. Not that I said this at school, but seriously, I think I have enough self acceptance to realise that I'm a freakin nerd, and that I actually enjoy it! Knowledge is power! I can undertsand that some people go on to yr 12 because they can't find a job, or they don't know what else to do, but seriously, who gives a toss if you're a nerd in yr 12. I mean if there is a time to be a nerd at school, its in yr 12 right. And I'm actually surprised that someone may think that calling someone a nerd is offensive! Heck, its a compliment. So moral of the story... accept who you are, nerds and all.!

Brandon

Never did I think that you could actually love an artwork like I do . Just look at it, it's so close to perfection. 'Brandon' painted by Vincent Fantauzzo.